"I want to draw something that means something to someone. I want to draw blind faith or a fading summer, or just a moment of clarity. It's like, when you go and see a really great band live for the first time and you know, and nobody's saying it, but everyone's thinking it, we have something to believe in again. I want to draw that feeling, but I can't. And if I can't be great at it, then I don't want to ruin it. It's too important to me."
Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill
I found this scene with Peyton and Lucas rather powerful. It's from the second episode of the first season. I don't want to bore you with the details if you're not a OTH fan, but the scene is when Peyton explains to Lucas why she refuses to submit her drawings to a local publication, despite him insisting her to do so.
This is how I feel with writing sometimes. Like when it's out there in the open for judgment, it's never the way I imagined it. There's so much things that I want to write about and convey the eager expressions but then it feels like it's never enough. There were several occurrences where I end up erasing the post I write here because it doesn't seem to feel right.
Maybe blogging is a way of selling out to yourself. You start off with the intentions of showing off who you are , that's why many of us have blogs in the first place. By doing so, you craft it in such a way where people can understand and relate to it. In the process however, the initial raw energy of such documenting and capturing an important life event or thought soon becomes distorted.You wonder whether you are really writing for yourself or for an audience out there.
Maybe, it's as simple as determining the things that are better left unsaid.
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